Monday, March 10, 2014

Day 1 of 30

I am starting fresh it finally felt like spring today which made me want to get out of hibernation. 
My eating wasn't the best today but moving forward the next 30 days:
Gym it/run outside every day of the 30 days 
No soda
Bringing lunch to work/cooking dinner
No takeouts 
No beer

Here we go! Swimsuit season is right around the corner 

Monday, March 11, 2013

Bachelor finale night

Relaxing on my couch, typing this in between commercials is the perfect way to end this day. I had the day off and got a good amount accomplished. I found out I'm NOT going blind and my eyes are healthy. I also found out I have one leg 1/4 inch longer- the reason for my chronic back pain, luckily I found a chiropractor to work out my kinks.
Getting adjusted today took a weight off my shoulders. I have been so stressed/frustrated with work that exercise could only fix it so much. I came to realize I was eating like crap to help with the rest of my stress. I decided to try an called "my fitness pal" to start counting my food intake. I've learned I'm not eating enough protein and carbs, however it says I'm consuming too much sugar. I would have to disagree because it is all natural sugar from fruit, no desserts.
According to this app I will with 135 lbs if I keep exercising and eating the way I am in just 5 weeks. That's a 10 lb weight loss. It's hard for a overweight person to loose 10 lbs in a month! I have never worried about the scale, however I haven't weighed that amount since high school. I also know the chances to get that slim are impossible because I am lifting twice as much as I'm doing cardio.
Every time I live by myself I look forward to learning something new about myself. It's been a hard 10 months in Iowa and I've been frustrated because I've gone in and out of happiness. It's hard being away from family and friends, it's hard working a stressful job. I often wonder what I'm doing here and what I'll get out of this. I know professionally it was a smart move, but emotionally...
I had that ah ha moment the other night with my friend daphne. She is such an inspiration to me and like I've said before he introduced me to Tasha. These two women are going to be the ones that give me what I've been looking for this stage of my life- CONFIDENCE. It's not that I hate my body, I just know what I find attractive and what I think the person I am going to end up with would find attractive. I know physical attraction isn't everything, but it is A LOT. If I'm not confident I am not able to put myself out there in a relationship.
A second thing I've learned is that alcohol isn't everything. Once I hit college I began to drink heavily. When I would drink I'd drink to the point of blacking out. I did things I regret the next day. I was the party girl, and that is what my friends expect of me. When I went home before thanksgiving I met up with my college friends an they were worried about me for the reason I wasn't drinking that night.
Drinking isn't fun anymore. I love hour beer tastes, And i love that giddy feeling, however I don't love the headaches and being nauseous and sleeping like crap.
My journey in Iowa is to get me healthy and to get my confidence back. I need confidence not just for personal satisfaction and not just or a relationship, but also for work. I found it interesting to hear my boss say he wished I had more confidence.

So daphne and Tasha, thank you for making me realize my reason for Iowa.
I'm getting buff, healthy, and happy!



Sunday, March 10, 2013

It's been awhile

I am so behind on this but tomorrow ill catch you all up. Still pushing strong!
Things to talk about:
Fitness competition
Tracking food
My ass starting to take shape

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

I need summer

It's been snowing here for 3 days now. I'm moving somewhere warm where I can run outside all winter long. The snow and cold wants to make me hibernate

Day 7, 8, and 9

Work is stressing me out and exercise is my only exit.
I met with Tasha and only cow she kicked my ass. My legs have been shaking all day. My ass is throbbing.
Going to try to walk through this pain tomorrow.

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Day 5 and 6

I made it to the gym last night after an insane Saturday! I did legs and a little cardio even though at work I had to do the receiving and got a upper body workout in. After a long day and workout I broke a cardinal rule- I went in the tanning bed. I haven't been in one on at least 5 years. Something about those warm bulbs hitting my skin before bearing the cold running out to my car sounded amazing! And it was worth all 9 minutes.
Last night dinner was great had me a pork chop, broccoli and some MAC.
I think my late dinner and working out so late in the evening kept me up all night. I was super exhausted and super crabby today. Pushed through my Hump day, did some grocery shopping so I could make yummy Indian food tonight and avoided the gym. I decided instead to go in a 45 min walk with my dog Gibney. It was beautiful out and 35 degrees felt super warm! I avoided going out with friends tonight, even though I was bored out if my mind and decided to lay low and hit the sack early.
Back at the gym tomorrow, ill prob take Tuesday off all together bc everyone needs a rest day then Tasha is going to kick my butt again in Wed AM
Super pumped and still going strong!



Friday, February 22, 2013

By the way ...

I finished off the pop tarts today. Yikes! Luna bars here I come!